i have been planning on getting my shit together for like 5 years now
I’d like to take a minute to say something.
I’m 5’5. 190 pounds. Size 12. Considered obese by the BMI scale. And I’m bulimic. I’ve been bulimic for two and a half years. You know why? Because I have been picked on my whole life for not being a size 2. I used to be called fat. By my peers. By my relatives. By everyone.
When I was 4, the school bully would always pick on me for not being skinny like the other girls. And then he made fun of me for not wanting to wear a bathing suit afterwards.
At 5, my cousin told all of my other cousins that I was a whale.
At 6, people in my ballet class made fun of me for being the fattest and tallest person there.
I went to a birthday party when I was 10 and I was the biggest girl there by at least 40 pounds. All the other girls crowded in a bedroom when they thought I was going to the bathroom and started talking about how big I was. I was outside the door the whole time crying my eyes out.
in Junior high, my ex boyfriend’s best friend at the time texted me and told me that my ex would break up with me if I didn’t lose weight and that I was too fat to be loved forever. Another time, my ex was on a school bus and people were making fun of him for having a “whale” of a girlfriend. He didn’t even defend me.
At 15, People would literally go up to me and poke at my legs and tell me they were huge during gym class in high school.
When I was 16 at my highest weight, my friend told me that I didn’t look good and that I should lose 30 pounds.
At 19, one of my relatives told me I had gotten fat.
At 20, I became bulimic.
And my life slowly slipped away into the addiction and I am now desperately trying to get out of it.
The message I want you guys to get from all of this? No matter how strong a person is, words hurt. They wear you down until you have nothing left. Then you will do anything to prove people wrong. Don’t be the kind of person that tells people they’re fat. Don’t be that person that others try to prove wrong.
Be a decent human being.